Demi Lovato detailed how she was “feminized” as she reflected on her career and opened up about her personal struggles on Wednesday.
The 29-year-old singer admitted she “didn’t know who she was” as she was steered towards becoming a “hyper-feminine pop star” as she grew up in the spotlight.
Speaking to Zane Lowe on Apple Music 1 ahead of the release of her new album, Demi spoke about how her anger, sexuality and past trauma have inspired her music.
Tough: Demi Lovato, 29, said she was forced to become a ‘hyper-feminine pop star’ as she reflected on her career and personal struggles on Wednesday
She explained: “The team that was around me was dictating my decisions and trying to influence the direction I was going.
“I didn’t know who I was and I had a team trying to force me to be this hyper-feminine pop star. And I was so unhappy to do so.
Demi recently explained that she now uses she/her pronouns in addition to they/them more than a year after coming out as non-binary.
Coming soon: Speaking to Zane Lowe on Apple Music 1 ahead of the release of her new album, Demi talks about how her anger, sexuality and past trauma have inspired her music
Reflecting on her career after signing a record deal at just 15, she continued: “I started to lose myself as well as myself as an artist and to be honest, it didn’t reflect what was inside of me.
“I was going on stage and I was in this leotard and high heels that I was miserable in. And I danced. I did choreography and stuff like that and I just wasn’t happy.
Demi detailed the inspiration behind her upcoming album, explaining: “Everything I write about comes from personal experience, and I went through a tough time last year.
“I went back into treatment and when I came out, I had all this unresolved trauma that I hadn’t dealt with or started to deal with during treatment. And then when I came out, I was like, “It’s okay to be angry and feel these things.”
Struggle: She explained: “I didn’t know who I was and I had a team trying to force me to be this hyper-feminine pop star. And I was so miserable doing that’
She added how she found herself “under the microscope” and added what advice she would have given her 15-year-old self.
The singer said: “I would say, ‘You’re beautiful. You don’t need to lose weight. You don’t have to judge yourself so harshly.’ But I couldn’t understand those words at the time anyway.
“I was just in a position where everything I did was under a microscope, so finding myself was also under a microscope.”
In the spotlight: Reflecting on her career after signing a record deal aged just 15, she said: “I started to lose myself as well as myself as an artist and to be honest, it didn’t reflect what was inside of me”
It comes as Demi revealed she is in a “happy and healthy relationship” with a fellow musician, according to a source who spoke to people.
“It’s a really happy and healthy relationship. He’s a super cool guy,” the insider revealed.
The romantic news comes after Demi seemingly shaded her ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama in her scathing new breakup song, 29, from her upcoming eighth studio album Holy Fvck, due out August 19.
A new gentleman? It comes as Demi revealed she’s in a “happy and healthy relationship” with a fellow musician, according to a source who spoke to People
The angry song, believed to be about the 42-year-old actor based on the revealing lyrics, was written from her perspective of the age he was when they first met, when she was still a teenager .
“29 at last / Fun, just like you were back in the day,” the singer sings. “I thought it was a teenage dream / Just a fantasy / But was it yours or mine?”
In another verse, the singer, who has decided to get completely sober at the end of 2021, notes that she was “too young to drink wine” when they first started dating.
Demi has not specifically confirmed that the tune is about Wilmer, who she dated from 2010 to 2016.
Shade: The romantic news comes after Demi seemingly shaded ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama, 42, in her new song, 29. The couple dated from 2010 to 2016; Pictured in 2016